family

Understanding the Permanence of My Mother’s Death

It comes back when I’ve forgotten what it’s like how much it can hurt. It’s there when I need someone to love me unconditionally. It’s there when I feel lost, unable to make a decision, unable to leave things the way they are. It’s there when I need my mother. Grief never ends. It’s there […]

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After the present tense – loss and language

My dad was a big fan of the Rolling Stones. He didn’t start to dislike them however, he did pass away. Death always comes unexpectedly. From one second to another someone ceases to exist and it’s hard for words to keep up with that, especially the tense you use to talk about them. Talking about […]

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My mother told me to never marry a smoker

My dad started smoking when he was only 18 because his mother was a smoker, and at that time, smoking was a sign of adulthood. My dad wasn’t very good at being an adult in other aspects of his life so I’m imagining he had this at least.

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